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Dear Sweet Precious Regina,
June 11, 1988 was one of the five happiest days of my life. Starting with the day I married your wonderful Daddy and following with the births of my four beautiful children.
You arrived at 11:06 PM and I knew in my heart a princess was born. Your big mop of dark brown hair looked just like a kitten. When we brought you home, we bought your older brother a red wagon because we didn’t want him to feel left out. He was staying with Grandma and Grandpa and when he came bounding into the house, he glanced at the wagon, said a quick “Oh wow” and yelled, “Where’s my baby sister?”
It’s been playtime ever since at our house. From your older brother pushing you in your baby swing doing 180’s, while you belly laughed and I prayed, to riding horses together and hanging out… He is our perfect vision of what an older brother should be.
Sean came into our family and you would sit on the couch and say, “I hold it.” You and Sean always had a special relationship that involved more laughing and clowning around, than anything serious!
Cassie was your little doll baby and you were always begging to hold her, feed her, bathe her and dress her. That never changed. You were always giving her beautiful hairdos like French braids and curls. And she just looked up to you as if you were a queen to her.
The move to Birmingham was hard for you because you left behind your special friend Alex. But then, you met Keegan and that’s when the FUN really began! From ear-to-ear smiling walks around the block, to naked romps in the ditch in the rain.
You became class pet in Kindergarten; your teacher called you her “loving bird.” Meredith became your very best friend and you missed her terribly when she moved to Tampa.
Your smile was the first thing people saw from you, along with your stunning beauty. Your whole face would light up when you smiled, showing off your gorgeous brown hair and translucent blue eyes. Eyes that held such depth and a truly beautiful soul within. It’s the beauty within that will be remembered most. You were becoming a “woman of noble character” as it talks about in Scripture in Proverbs 31; “You were clothed with strength and dignity.”
On January 29, 2002, you asked Jesus Christ into your heart in the quiet of your room. You kept these treasures hidden in your heart for awhile. There was always a gentle, quiet mystery about you, but I had no doubt that Jesus, the Author and Perfector of your life, was doing a great work in you.
You swam like an artist from the time you were five years old. For the following six years, you earned boxes and shelves worth of ribbons and trophies.
Then one day, when you were eleven years old, you met a tired, old horse named Bart and he stole your heart. You begged Daddy for a horse. So, on your next birthday, Daddy and I bought you “Sheik,” your horse. Oh, how your face lit up and you hugged your Daddy and gave him that special smile you saved just for him. I always knew Daddy was your “hero” ~ you owned a piece of his heart and knew just what to say to him and how to get around him. You made him feel like a king. You were a “daddy’s girl” in every sense of the word and I rejoiced in that always.
Horses became your new passion and your favorite days were hanging out at the barn with Erin, Sarah, BJ Bex, Darryl, and David. What a bunch of “barn rats!” Precious, each and every one of you. Kyle, Sean and Cassie would join you too. Then Daddy bought "Arky" and we rode together whenever you had enough patience to deal with my inept riding. Watching you jump at shows was like watching a symphony ~ your back erect and regal. Again, more ribbons and awards.
The move to Tampa was heart wrenching for us. Your friendships were deeply rooted and my heart ached to take you away from your friends. It didn’t take long though, for the boys to notice you and a particularly cute, red-head came into your life. “Isn’t his red hair adorable, Mama?” I had to call him Thomas Wise to avoid confusion with your older brother. He became part of our family and will continue to be so.
A sweet girl named “Stormi” came into your life and you spent literally hours giggling, laughing and eating “muddy buddies.”
You always had a special relationship with your Poppy, Nanny and Grandpa. Grandma was gone far too soon for all of us, but she is with you now and we are rejoicing in that.
You loved trips to New Jersey and Connecticut to see all your aunts, uncles, cousins and especially your Great-grandmother Nana Rose who is still with us today.
You were becoming the woman I could only dream about. And in one horrible, fatal accident, our world was torn apart. It was an accident and no one plans them. But, just as June 11th was the happiest day of you in our lives, December 2nd was the happiest day of your life. For in that instant, you gazed into the face of your Loving Savior Jesus Christ and He held your hand and welcomed you home.
I will never stop thanking Him for allowing us fifteen beautiful years with you, but I know that you, as well as your older brother, Sean and Cassie, truly belong to Him and I thank Him daily for the privilege of raising you.
My prayer is that through this tragedy, Our Almighty, Merciful and Wonderful Lord will be glorified. “And we know that in all things, God works for the good of those who love Him; who have been called according to His purpose.” Romans 8:28.
So, my precious, baby, sweet sweet Regina Rose Byrne; “This is the day the Lord has made. Let us rejoice and be glad.” I know that’s what you have wanted.
We will all miss you terribly but, we will rejoice on that glorious day of the Lord when we see you face to face again.
Loving you always and forever, Mama and Daddy, your older brother, Sean, and Cassie |
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June 11, 2004...6:11 a.m. Good Morning Beautiful Girl, Today is your
birthday.
I remember this day as if it were yesterday. Oh, how I wish it were. I wish I were holding you to my breast to nurse you for the first time, your little bird mouth seeking nourishment. It was a sunny, beautiful New England day in Connecticut. Dry, and gorgeous, rare for New England actually. I felt a bit anxious but I was always anxious by this time in pregnancy. Big and uncomfortable. We got up early because Daddy was painting Nanny and Poppy's house. Nan, your older brother and I didn't do much. I really sat around and waited. Kyle was 2 Years, 4 months old, into everything and a joy to be around. Around 5 p.m. Nanny and I thought we should go to Bradlees and get a board game to pass the evening so I wouldn't be just thinking of how uncomfortable I was. So we left your older brother with Dad and Poppy and off we went. Walking through Bradlees, I had to use the rest room. Gush. There went my water while I was going to the bathroom. MOM, MY WATER BROKE JUST NOW! There was no pain, but I got excited because I knew it would be soon now. We called Daddy and Poppy from the courtesy desk phone (there were no cell phones at this time). We told Poppy to tell Kenny to go home and get ready to go to the hospital. One thing we forgot to tell him was that we were not there yet. We were still in Bradlees. (There was no caller id then either) The cashier asked when I was due and I told her my water just broke. It was fun to make her so nervous but I knew I had time because I felt no pains of labor. So, we purchased our Parcheesi game and diapers and off we went. When we pulled into Nanny's street, Poppy and your older brother were running down the street. Nanny and I were very confused. Poppy was very nervous and told us that Kenny went home and got scared because we weren't there. I still can't figure out what he was doing running down the street. When Poppy drove me home, I knew I had time so I wanted to shower and pack before we left. We also wanted to bring your older brother to Kenny's Mom and Dad's house because the plan was for him to stay there. We drove the fifteen minutes to their house with your older brother and I sat down at the table to chat with my mother-in-law. She wanted me to leave right away but I knew I had time because there was still no pain. We stayed until they threw us out. Then we drove the other 30 minutes to the hospital. We arrived there around 8 pm or so and the pain had kind of started in the car. That was very much like you. You took your time and did everything carefully and slowly and well. I had my Christian tapes to play while in labor to soften the mood. It was pain but as my mother used to say it was "happy pain". When I could see your head I saw your dark mop of hair and knew or maybe hoped hard enough that it was a girl. (Why should a boy be blessed with that gorgeous mop of hair? They don't worry about bad hair days) IT'S A GIRL!!! 11:06 p.m. Tears, happy tears, and relief that it was over and you were healthy and beautiful. The next day the heat wave began. Everybody that came to see me complained how hot and humid it was. (People don't have central air in their homes in Connecticut) your older brother didn't come see us because I would be home the following Monday with just one day in the hospital. Monday you bounded in the house ready to play. Play play play play, that's all you did for the next 15 years. You started to have your own interests but you still loved being with your family too. My biggest regret now is that I didn't see you on your birthday for three years. I thought we had time. I thought we had years. You were at the barn with your horses and we celebrated either before or after. How I want those years back so I could do it differently. You would be 16 today. I wanted to have a sweet 16 party for you. I wanted to take you to the country music festival this weekend in Nashville. We loved country music together. It was one of our bonds. In some ways I already regretted and dreaded this day because you were to get your driver's license today. That is always a scary time for any parent. I long for that feeling now. I want to hear you sing. I want to see your smile. I want to hear your laugh. I want to hear you say, "When can I go to the barn?" or "Can my boyfriend come over?" I want to feel your face. I want to touch your beautiful hair. I am glad you didn't want to be a blonde because your brown hair was so beautiful with your blue eyes. I want to sing Happy Birthday to you and have angel food cake with strawberries and whipped cream and yell at you for eating all the strawberries before we have the cake. I want you back. I do believe you are in a better place but that doesn't stop the pain. I love you baby and I pray that somehow you know how we are hurting for you without that making you sad because I know there are no tears in Heaven. Say Hello to Jesus for me and tell Him to come back soon so I can see you again. I love you forever. Mama |
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