July 5, 2000, Wednesday  I'm going to get right into the story. Today me and Sarah were sitting on Ginger and Molly talking. She said to me that some people at the barn thought I was acting like a snob and were sick of it. And this really surprised me because I love Erin and Clare and Miss Chris and Mary and all them but now I know they hate me. And she also said to stop going on and on about the saddle and Lysander. I really don't mean to act like that. Then I got online after I got back from church with Sarah. And Carli told me that Sarah told her which made me feel even worse because I love Sarah and I thought she liked me. Henry made me feel a little better. And Carli got mad because she thought I was ignoring her and stuff. I cleared that up. But I mean I've loved all of them since I met them and now I know that their smiles are forced and they are just being nice because...I don't know. But Sarah was real nice about it like she said that she told me before someone else did because she knew I'd rather a close "friend" say it than someone else. But the point is is that everyone I know and love there thinks I'm a snob. I don't know why. Sarah said that they said I changed. I don't feel like I'm acting any different. It's very frustrating. But Sarah is right about the saddle and Lysander because I almost made Clare go buy a new saddle. And then they thought that I thought they were favoring Mary over me and I didn't know that Mary was paying for camp. I just thought she was coming to ride. And I did sound like a snob because Mrs.Chris said to me that I may have to ride Western and I said, I am not, Mary will and she goes, Well, horse campers go first Regina and I said well I'll just ride bareback I don't really mind and I didn't mean for it to sound bad at all but then Clare said I'll go get another saddle and I was like no no I really don't care and then he was like you know we're not favoring Mary over you and I was like I know she's a paid camper. I don't mind really. And then Clare and Chris just kind of looked past me like well la tee da ta da. And I was pretty rude but I didn't mean for it all to sound like that. So now Chris, Clare, Erin, Mary, Craig, Emily and Sarah think I'm a snob and that's all I know of right now. It's just annoying that the people I love think I'm a snob. I don't know how I changed or what to do to seem like a snob but I'm gonna have to be extra nice and absolutely NO attitude about saddles, horses, etc. This sucks.

July 20, 2000, Thursday Today was o.k. Me and Erin went swimming. We didn't ride because it was too hot. Everything at the barn is falling apart. I mean it's not the place where the worries are gone anymore. I mean Clare, I hardly get to see and when I do see him he's either tired or grumpy. Mom and Dad are getting upset because they thought I was gonna show this summer and so did I but Clare doesn't really seem up to showing. I thought this summer was gonna be the best but it really hasn't been. And Mrs. Chris hasn't been very cheery and upbeat like normal either. Today she was okay but not as normal. Lysander leaves at the end of this month. This is terrible!! It's not so bad because I have Sheik and I love Sheik. But Lysander will always have a special place in my heart because I love him so much and I really do care about him. No one could possibly feel the way I do about him. Lysander is special he loves me he cares for me I hate to know I may never see him again I'm going to use up about 3 rolls of film on him. He's sooo special to me. Sheik is wonderful too but she doesn't love the way Lysander does. I mean I still love her but if she in the pasture when wouldn't walk up to me and hug on me like Lysander does. I will miss him forever. I love you Lysander!!

August 1, 2000 Today was all right. First I sat around the house and nagged my dad to take me to the barn. I got there around 11:30 but that's better than never. We started Sheik's barrel training. (BIG MISTAKE) Then we put her away and sat in the barn waiting for the rain and thunder and lightning to stop. Then we went swimming. Then me and Sarah rode Baby and Molly to the Arena and put Sheik's halter back. I saw Clare and Chris and they weren't too happy. Maybe I'm hurting Clare's feelings by not practicing jumping and stuff. I certainly hope not. After that we turned out horses, fed and watered. Lately all Sarah's been talking about is my older brother and I kinda hope he doesn't like her or something because I can't go 5 minutes without hearing something about him. It's getting really old. She also thinks that me and my older brother always fight and hate each other but that's not true. I love Sarah to death but I wish sorta that she had never met him. It's not that I think she likes my older brother better or anything like that. It's just that I'm getting sick of hearing about how great my older brother is when I don't always get along with him. The other day she missed my race because she was in my older brother's lap!?? Oh Well!     I LOVE LYSANDER  He hasn't left yet. I love N'Sync

Wednesday, 12-19-01 Today we got out of school! I'm glad I was soo ready for a break. Trent told me on the bus that I get Alex in trouble with Paige b/c she thinks I flirt with him--I really don't and would like to clear that up but I guess I will when we go back. Nick asked me to go to Taco Bell with him at 9:30 on his mo-ped. I was like "uh yea right" My throat hurts b/c my voice is gone. I went to the barn, rode Sheik, taught Sarah Wesley and came home. It was kinda boring. Becca and Erin were both not there. But, oh well hopefully they'll come tomorrow. It's almost Christmas-I'm excited. Well, GOODNIGHT

Sunday 12-23-01 Things are changing faster than I can write them down. Ms Chris can't rent the house they wanted. Erin was pretty bummed. We have to give the arena back to Cletus b/c we can't afford to keep is. Clare is gone and so are most of the horses. He took all of his saddles and bridles and most of his clothes and stuff. Friday he took Fancy, Annie, Sis, Rusty, Cyrus, and King in the trailer and left. He came back with an empty trailer. Erin was sad b/c she rides King with me and Arky and now he's gone. I hope my dad will buy me Arky. And Mom wants him, too! I hope he will! Erin wants Bubba. He half belongs to Ms Chris anyway. I don't know what's going to happen now. Erin left for Gatlinburg today. Becca hasn't been to the barn since like Tuesday and BeaJ is gone till Saturday. I hope I'm not out there all by myself on Monday. That would be really boring! Well it's about time to go to church so c-ya lata!

Tuesday 1/1/02 Happy new year! I am so glad that last year is over!! It was so awful! The beginning of this year isn't gonna be great but hopefully it will get better. Erin came home tonight. Joe called yesterday and took Boss and Bubba. Erin is going to be really upset. ---- asked me out on the internet. I just don't know if I want to go out with him or not. I did like him but I don't know he seriously needs to brush his teeth more often though. You can like see the yellowy stuff on them. Yuck! Another thing is that I like Zack a lot. Well I don't know. I need to talk to Erin though and I don't want to tell Becca really b/c she just doesn't understand me like Erin does but I will tell her if I end up going out with -----. I just don't know. Guys can be very confusing. I am soo glad Erin didn't move if she had I don't know who I could really talk to- well besides like my Mom. You know the weird thing about life is that as soon as you think you got it all together and most everything is good...BOOM something else hits you. Clare left to Canada-- just picked up and left; didn't say goodbye or anything to anyone. I am pretty sure we are staying at the arena. But Clare leaving does not end my dreams. I can still win ribbons and can go to the Olympics without him. He certainly didn't hold my horse up or me on it! I can still ride just fine without him. But it's weird. I mean, he just left. Left us with so many problems and questions with no solutions or answers. Becca is definitely leaving. BeaJ probably is. I'm pretty sure me and Erin are staying though. I think I might tell ---- that my life is a little crazy right now and I am too busy for a b/f and if he's still interested to ask me back out in a few weeks-hmmmm Well, goodnight.

Thursday 1/3/02 It snowed this morning! Only about an inch though. We took down our tree and decorations too! Erin came and picked me up to go to the barn around 12:00. BeaJ was there but she didn't want to come with us on a trail ride. We can't find Bup, he went with us and Honey but when we were about to turn back we couldn't find him. Me and erin were soo cold on the way back, when we got back we went to the house and ate soup and then played checkers. Erin beat me of course. She always does anyway. I'm staying with her this weekend because my older brother is going away to tennis school tomorrow. Well, I'm going to bed goodnight. By the way, happy new year I really hope this year will be better than last year b/c LAST YEAR SUCKED EGGS!!

Sunday 1/6/02 Mom and Dad just got back from Florida. It's 10:25 pm. I had fun this weekend with Erin. It's so annoying how no one thinks me or Erin know how to do anything. I mean Mr. Doug thought he needed to tell us who gets what feed and how much. Me and Erin have been feeding, watering, and cleaning stalls for over two years. We know how to do it, okay? And Becca actually asked me and Erin if her horse was getting fed today and it really hurt our feelings and really pissed me off!! Does she really think that we would let her horse starve? And BeaJ came out today too b/c her dad wanted to check on PJ to see if he was dead or got out and drowned in mud. Ok, that makes absolutely no sense to me!! This whole thing is driving me crazy. I don't think any other 13 year old girl has to deal with so much grown up problems like Erin and I do. But Ms Chris said that she could probably get me and Erin to teach lessons for money if we wanted to and I do b/c $25 a week is a lot of money for me. I don't want to go to school. I hope it snows a lot. Well, goodnight!!

Monday 1/28/02 Yesterday my dad bought my mom Arky! That is so cool. One of our vets' husband is renting the barn now. I don't know. He's changing everything. Well, I just have to get used to it. It seems like nothing in my life stays the same anymore but I'll just keep on smiling. A boy in my grade died Friday. I didn't know him. His name was Billy Buck. He died when a rope snapped his neck on accident and another friend of mine shot himself, Matt Green, a couple of weeks ago. It's all so sad! Well, I better get to bed. Oh yeah, I got my braces off the Thursday before last! Well, goodnight

Friday February 22,'02 I just got back from the movies with Erin. We saw Crossroads. It was good. Winston and a few other people were there. I started going out with Michael 2 wks ago. Today he is in Atlanta. This is so terrible. I really like his best friend. Ugh, that is so horrible. I mean his best friend Winston is so sweet and funny and just great. But that is so bad!! I mean I still like Michael, it's just I like Winston a lot more. I saw him at the movies. He and Brian and a few other people were gonna go to wings and he wanted to take me and Erin, but Mom wouldn't let us. I don't know sometimes it seems like he likes me but he's Michael's best friend!!

Well anyway, things are getting worse at the barn. This new guy Tim, the headlice, is renting it and changing everything. He says that this "shithole" isn't suitable for the horses that are supposedly coming. He thinks that our horses are trash and so are we. I'd like to slap him to another country but I can't. Personally I think that if he thinks the barn is such a shithole he should just leave! Ugh, he's such a jerk! Becca is totally pissing me and Erin off! Ever since she got her license she's never at the barn to ride her horse so we put him out in the pasture full time b/c it's ridiculous for him to just sit in his stall all day. Well, I have a retreat tomorrow so goodnight. I still think that it is so horrible about Winston and Michael! I hate Tim! And I hate school! Isn't my life just great right now? IT'S COMPLICATED!!

Wednesday 2/27/02 Today was pretty bad. First I was almost late to detention (for being tardy). Then we had an assembly and a reading day. We got out at noon. I'm so sick of Tim and his bullshit. He acts like me and Erin are the jerks. He is such a butthead. Anyway, he thinks there is going to be a big barn meeting Friday. Chris, Cletus, Erin and I will be at a rodeo. My dad is allergic to horses and can't come. BeaJ's dad can't come. Becca is babysitting and her parents can't come. So the meeting is basically going to be him and Risa (the new trainer) having a stare contest. Ms. Sue was told that me and Erin wouldn't be teaching anymore b/c of Risa and some other BS.

I'm so sick of Tim's shit. He's doing the best he can to get rid of me and Erin. BeaJ and Becca like him. I can't see why at all but wutever. He claims he brought all of our cats back from the vet but for some reason we only have 5 out of 12. HMMMM... Buttermilk, Duffy, and Rowdy. Ugh, he is such a fag. I'm still going out with Michael but we'll see what happens.....GOODNIGHT

Monday 3/11/02 Well quite a bit has happened lately- me and Michael broke up Friday. Tim is getting better. Risa is still a hmmm...nevermind! She wants me to ride her jumping horses in shows. Show season starts up again this month! I'm excited. Sheik has been doing great lately! I have to get her coggins redone soon though. I need to call Sarah Wesley b/c we can still teach in the outside arena. The rodeo was great. Sarah got rodeo princess and I met some really hot cowboys. Will, Tim's son, likes me. He is 16 and pretty cute but I'm not really seeing it. David is back and has the biggest crush on Erin. He tried to kiss her and she freaked out hehe but he's moving at the end of May. Well, Winston is still as hot as ever. Haha Goodnight

Thursday 4/4/02...Snowball died about a week ago. March 23rd actually. It was so sad I cried. It sometimes seems like all I've done this New Year is cry! Hopefully we can buy a trainer to bring me to shows b/c I still want to learn. We missed the first show. It was March 30th. I was sad. It was a rainy yucky day though. Spot has come a long way since December. He's really doing well. Me and Erin were gonna go to Gatlinburg over Spring Break but we couldn't. Well, Risa is still a (blank). Tim's pretty cool now. Well I'm gonna go to bed it's 11:15 anyway. Actually it's only 11:00 my clock is 15 minutes ahead so I wake up on time to make the bus! Hehe I love Zack. Winston is hot. Goodnight.

Tuesday 4/9/02 Today was pretty boring but I felt like writing. We started SAT's today! I remember last year that guy sent me that note the said how hot I was and he wasn't doing the test he was looking at me. Haha His name is Daniel and he's 15 this year. Well, we started the easy reading part but tomorrow we have math. Guess what I now have a 92 in that class! I am so happy! The Science project is due Friday. We still have 4th and 5th period everyday even though we have SAT's which means I get to see Winston everyday in 5th no matter what. Whoa, he looked good today!! Hehe After school I went to the barn to ride my horses. Then I came home and got on the internet to talk to Zack. I love him! Well I'm tired so goodnight. I miss Clare!!

Monday 4-29-02 We're probably moving to Florida in June. Over the weekend dad and I went to look at houses and barns. I'll talk about all that later. Part of me wants to move but MOST of me doesn't. I don't want to leave my best friend! I could just cry!! I don't really want a change. I have never really experienced a move that I could remember. We moved to Bama when I was 3 so that really wasn't a change for me besides NO SNOW! I don't want to leave here. I just want to stay, but I do want to move, just Erin come with me. Oh! I don't really know what I want anymore. I'm so confused right now and it's all just happening so fast! I mean it would be cool to have my own barn but I don't want to leave Erin. I'm so confused, so lost. I just don't understand! GRRR

Wednesday 5/1/02 I cannot stand Rise (Risa) that horrid woman was yelling at me cuz my lesson was wearing capris and shoes (not boots) around her customers and how it's so unprofessional bladdy, blah, blah! WHEN SHE IS WEARING SHORTS AND TENNIS SHOES AND KIMMY IS WEARING SHORTS AND HAS BARE FEET and is running around the arena on SNIP bareback without a helmet anyway! I mean, HELLO! Can we say, uh, hypocrite!! I mean really now? So now Ms. Sue and Sarah Wesley are NOT TO BE SEEN!! They have to park at Ms Chris' house and I have to bring Sheik to them! Rise made Sarah Wesley cry for cryin' out loud. I mean talk about unprofessional. She's too damn rude to EVERYBODY to be around much longer but she may get her wish if I leave but for now...RISE CAN JUST KISS MY LITTLE WHITE BUTT!!!

Wednesday 5/15/02 Well today hasn't gone too great! School was ok. Winston came back from alternative school Monday and looks as good as ever!! I got a 345.5 out of 400 on my S.S. Project! That's a B! I was just tired all day and Sheik threw two shoes yesterday so I couldn't use her for my lesson. I was gonna call and cancel but they weren't home! Rise got mad at me-what else is new? Erin really pissed me off today! She asked what's wrong and I said, "I hate rude people" and she said, "Well, then I don't want to hear it!!" Can you believe that so I was just, "Fine I know you don't that's why I'm not telling you about it." Man that was aggravating. Her and Rise get along just fine now... hmph. Well she talks to her all the time. Well, I'm moving for certain-I told Erin and we cried for 2 hours but now she--Well, I dunno I'm just tired so goodnight. I have to study for my SS exam.

Saturday 5/18/02  Well, today was weird in somewhat of a bad way. I sat at home til like 2:00. Then I went to the barn. I met Douglas and Brad and hung out with them, Becca, Erin, Kristen, and BeaJ for a little while. Then I rode Jane for Cookie. Then I hung out with Will and Erin and Evan and Kristen. Will and Becca broke up so now he's back to liking me again. I was so cold so he told me to go get his jacket and I was like; I'll just get BeaJ's but he said No go get mine so I did. HEHE it smelled really good too!! Clare came today to get his sound system. Will asked me to go with him to dump shavings on the tractor and he told me Clare was coming. He said my face went white and he stopped the cart and grabbed me and was like, "Are you all right"? He kept askin me then he asked Erin what was wrong with me. And BeaJ said he was worried. As I was leaving I saw Clare's truck and trailer and almost cried.

I've never had anyone hurt me as much as he did when he left. But I just can't believe he had the nerve to come on Saturday evening let alone come back at all!! Well, anyway, I went to the eighth grade banquet last night.

It was pretty fun. I actually wore a dress! I was so bummed though b/c Winston said he was gonna be there but he wasn't. :( We might be moving in only a few weeks!! I hate this. I don't want to move. Anytime somebody tells me I'm lucky to be moving to Florida or how much they want to move I just want to slap them! B/c I don't want to move and I am and the peeps who do want to move aren't!....confession: I think I have a crush on Will! Is that bad? GRRR FLORIDA SUCKS!!!--so does Rise (Risa) but I won't talk about that! hehe

Saturday 6-1-02 Hmmm Well it's 12:06 am so it's really 6-2-02 but who cares! I just got back from Gatlinburg with Erin. We had a blast! Monday we just drove up and unpacked. Tuesday we hung out then went to walmart, grocery store, to eat, and watched movies. Wednesday-we went tubing then went downtown Thursday we went to the Alpine slide, and go carts, and water rides, then out to eat. Friday we went riding then went downtown shopping.

It was fun!! We broke our personal record of how many guys hit on us in 1 night from 13 to 31 so I think we did pretty good! Sat-we packed and came home! I do go back Thursday with the youth group so that will be fun. I think they had Laura put down on Wed.b/c her leg was really messed up. It was sad. Darryl and David are working at the barn so now Erin's pissed off but oh well! I missed Winston, ha ha that's awful but I'm tired so goodnight or good morning, wutever.

Monday June 3, 2002  Well today was ok. I had to get up at 10:00 b/c somebody was looking at the house. We went to the RV place and then dropped me off at Erin's. I changed there then we went up to the barn. Rise (Risa) doesn't talk to me but she loves Erin! I don't know or even care! She irks me big time! Arky got his feet done today. I rode Sarah's baby horse. I'm riding it again tomorrow. I rode Sheik in the arena b/c she has no shoes. Hopefully she'll get them tomorrow. I went to eat at Lloyds with Erin, BeaJ, BeaJ's mom, Chip, and Chris. It was Sheik's b'day today. Spot's was yesterday. I'm going shopping tomorrow or Wednesday for the youth trip. I have to wake up kinda early tomorrow b/c they're showing the house. WOW! Not really. Well I'm tired and I have a busy day tomorrow so goodnight! HAPPY B'DAY SHEIK!

Sunday 6-9-02 I went to Gatlinburg again and just got back today! It was sooo,sooo,sooo so much fun! I had a blast! The first day Thursday- we had to be at the bus at 5:30 and ready to go! Then we were on our way we watched movies, slept, and listened to music. When we got there everyone went to their rooms and got cleaned up. I was with Tina, Jenni and Natalie. It was awesome! Then we went to Ripley's aquarium--I got to touch a shark, stingray, and a horseshoe crab. It was cool! Then we went to the ripley's museum! It was pretty cool too! Then we went shopping and ate dinner at the Hard Rock Café! Then we all went back and swam. Andy and Blake kept throwing, dunking and carrying me-it was fun. Then we had prayer and then went to bed and watched the MTV movie awards. On Friday we woke up and went to Christus Gardens! It was neat! Then we went and rode the tram up to Ober Gatlinburg. Me and Natalie rode the Alpine slide. Then played mini golf with Blake and Martin! Martin won, then Blake, then Nat, then me. We had to make a rule that 5 was the highest number of shots you could make! Ha ha Then we ate lunch. Then we went back to the hotel and decided to take the trolley downtown. After we got off the first trolley we found out that we wouldn't have time to go. So Trent and Laura said that you could walk home with them or wait with the Varner's for the trolley. Most everybody walked b/c it was only supposed to be 5 blocks. Anyway, about 8 blocks later several people stopped and waited for the next trolley. I walked the whole way with Blake, Nat, Tasha, Leah, Bruce, Martin, Mitch and Trent. It turned out to be 3 1/2 miles. 5 blocks my butt. Martin had also decided he would follow me everywhere that day and it was aggravating. Oh yeah and all that was after the Dixie Stampede which was fun-at least I think it was. Anyway, Saturday morning we went white water rafting! It was soo awesome! After that we went to the hotel then to the outlets then back to the hotel to pack and clean and swim. Me, Jenni, Tina, and Nat were up till like 2:30am. We had the funnest time b/c we were all like so out of it, it was just funny. This morning we went to church, then to the hotel to load up our stuff. Then we had lunch at the Apple Barn. And then we were on our way home. On the way we watched Remember the Titans. I fell asleep on the floor with my pillow through Men in Black. I sat with Edward and Tasha, Natalie, Blake, Jenni and some others. I had so much fun. Whenever we went to the pool b/c Blake would flirt so bad and it was so much fun. Martin followed me the whole time- I coulda punched him too! Well, I'm going to bed. Goodnight grrrr

Sunday 7-14-02 This might be the last night I spend in this house. We found a house in Florida and are moving there after we get back from New Jersey.

Tomorrow I'm spending the night with Erin. That could be a REALLY GOOD thing b/c Erin is going on a date with Alex and if I see Will tomorrow I could say something like, "Yea I'm spending the night with Erin but she's going on a date..." and believe me I can come up with the rest and if all works out then will have a date with Will. But, I better not get my hopes up b/c I might not even see him tomorrow. But boy wouldn't it be awesome! Why does this all have to happen when I'm leaving?? It really sucks! I'm going to miss everybody and everything so much! Well I need to get to bed I just might have a big day tomorrow. Oh I hope so! I love Will Reid! Goodnight

Tuesday 7-16-02 Last night I spent the night with Erin. She went on a date with Alex. Anyway, yesterday I went with Sarah and rode doc while she rode Molly and ponied dixie. Then we went to her house and ate lunch and then we went with Earl to get the washing machine fixed. Erin was at BeaJ's till like 4:00. Then she had to go on her date by 6:00 in b/t we rode Spot, Sheik, and Doc. Then me and Sarah went to Oak Mountain with Earl. We talked in the truck the whole time while Earl was doing something. We talked about everything, her and Earl, me and Will, Erin and alex, me moving, our friends, horses and families. She is so mad because she thinks me and Will would make the perfect couple. I agree and so does Erin. Sarah thinks I should go for him but I suppose if we were meant for each other something will happen. I just like him so much it hurts. I mean everything about him.

I hope things work out! Anyway, today me and Erin got up around 10 and rode Sheik and Coosa, then we got health certificates on Sheik and Arky. Then we ate lunch. Then we took PJ and Arky swimming, it was great. After that we went home and changed and went to Massey's. Then we went and had ice cream.

Then we had to bring Kelsey home and pick Chip up. Then I had to ride Molly.

She did good. Erin rode Rufis. Then we fed and turned out Sarah's horses Then it was time for me to go. We are leaving for New Jersey again tomorrow.

And staying till Sunday. Then we'll be in Florida for a couple days. Then we are back for a little bit. UGH I'm sick of traveling. I just want to stay here and be Erin's best friend, Sarah's friend, and Will's girlfriend. Ya know, I'm sick of all this moving around. I've been doing it all summer. I'm going to miss everyone so much but anyway goodnight--morning, it's 12:15am!

I love Will Reid! Goodnight

Tuesday 7-22-02 Well, I had fun in New Jersey. I saw my cousins. Now, I'm back in Florida till tomorrow. I hope I can stay in B'ham with Erin until my horses come down. That would be great. I don't know if mom and dad will let me though. I hate this. They want the family together and that's great but after the horses come we'll be stuck, ya know! I just want to go home. The rental house is ok. I mean it was dirty and it's too small but we hopefully won't be here for long anyway. And ya know it's not like I just want to go up there to be with Erin I mean that's part of it but I just want to go home in my own room with my own bed. I can't stop thinking about Will either.

It's drivin me nuts. Every pathfinder I see I think of him till it hurts, grrr. I just read something really neat...

Trust that you don't need to ask questions

Trust that there is nothing and no one to blame.

Trust in the fact that you are not the center of the universe

Trust that events will reveal their true meaning on their own

Trust that you will not be overwhelmed.

Trust that you can see and understand

Trust if you have the calmness to do so.

WOW!

Saturday 8-10-02 Well I left home 1 week from today and I did get to staywith Erin since the Thurs b4 I left. They gave me a going away dinner the Wed. b4 I left. It was lots of fun. We went to Joe's crab Shak. Erin, JR, Sarah, Earl, Me, Will, Evan, Chris, Chip, Darryl, Seth Felicia, BeaJ, and Becca were all there. Becca was being so mean to Will and she was sitting near me so he didn't sit next to me (he said). I like him so much- I talked to him for a hour and 45 min. on the phone Thurs. last. He went with the youth group paint balling and was on my team. B4 I left and I was crying he put his arms around me and said that everything would be ok. I miss everyone so much. It sux here. I want to go HOME! We have a break Aug 30-Sept.2 so if Earl is down here he might be able to take me home with him over the weekend. I'm going next weekend to get my horses. I hope I see Will and Erin and Sarah and Earl, etc. I just wanna go home! I miss everyone soo much. I started school Aug 7. It's going fine- 3 guys have asked for my number.There are a LOT of hott guys there too! But the only guy I want right now is
Will! It's going fine. I've made some friends. My religion class loves my accent they call me Alabama- I don't mind. I am so bored today. Nothing is going on. I can't wait till next weekend when I CAN GO HOME! I'm counting the days till I see Erin, Sarah, will, Chris, earl, JR, Chip, BeaJ, Becca, etc. GRR this hurts so much. I thought I would never stop crying sometimes at night when I dream about my friends at home. I miss Erin so much it hurts!! Well I better finish cleaning my room. I love Will Reid. Erin and Regina Best Friends 4ever!!

Friday, 8-30-02 Today I had no school. I sat by the pool then went guinea pig shopping for Mom's classroom. Last week I went to the school dance. I had fun. Xavier and Katy are going out. I don't know if Megan and Marc are though. GRR I need to get a new diary. This one is falling apart. My horses are finally here! I went home Mon. and Tues. to get them. It was an interesting trip! I'm getting sick of most of the guys at school. Most of them say they like me but they only think of me as a piece of ass. I mean it's really annoying to have guys say they like me and crap w/o even getting to know me! So everybody else gets asked out b/e the guy I like and liked me won't ask me out b/c some other guy likes me and most won't ask b/c they're afraid I'll say no. It's ridiculous guys don't have any balls anymore to actually talk to a girl. It's such BS! I'm so sick of it-And then my mother wonders why I go after older men!! GOODNIGHT